Fade To Black

He will die, Lynn. No amount of pushing it to the back of your head, or fixating on other things is going to change that fact. The when, the where, who knows. But the fact is, he will die, Lynn. You will have to go home. You will have to face your father. And you will have to face yourself. It isn't that I haven't forgiven him. It is that he thinks he has nothing to be sorry for. Can I get passed the horrible parts of the past, to remember the good. I could hear him moaning last night, when I was on the phone with mom. I've watched a lot of loved ones take their last breath. Up until now, they've been silent. This may not be the thing that kills him, but dear God, the sound. I want to forgive my brother for the things he's done. But I'm scared to death he hasn't changed his ways. Before I am his sister, I am Phoenix's mother. I have to think about him first. I have to know he's not tempted by the dragon again. I just wish there was some kind of sign saying, "IT"S SAFE". But that will never be, and my heart is all I have to go on. I love my brother, and for a long time, he was my closest confidant. I miss that brother, but I'm scared he's already dead; and this heroine monster is all that's left, feeding on my parents kindness and/or naivety? It's been a long time, brother. I hope not too long. Dear God, help us find the way before it's too late.